Be still and know that He is God

What are words?

2012-02-10T02:41:00.001+08:00

Tonight I thought I could bring a closure to much of my life in hall on NTU campus. I thought that was so...until I finally uncovered the ugly side of it all...

Following the recent win in the IHG Finals for my hall, a VERY VERY offensive write up was posted on the competing hall's website. This despite the very fact that the site is open to public and there are appointed publication heads to moderate what the writers post.

I am very much affected and disappointed.

Not just because of the article, but the fact that I've worked so hard these 3 years to see the team finally entering the finals and clinching the gold medal after 4 years!

Sure we've had a better draw and through the entire season, we were always able to win the games but a slight margin. But the fact that we are in the Finals, doesn't that count for something? Why must one write in such demeaning manner? Is this how people motivate their own by demeaning others?

I don't know why this has gotten hold of me so much...it's already almost 3am and I am still very much worked up inside me. I pray that I will eventually let this go and God forgive me, but I really am affected right now...

Is this why I had to read about PATIENCE for this morning's devotion? Well God, You definitely could not have a more perfect timing than this...

Going for Gold

2012-02-04T11:16:00.000+08:00

Humbling journey and an unexpected experience.

Though I was not the critical factor to the success, I rejoice knowing my players have fought their best for the glory of the Hall, for themselves.

This IHG season for the badminton has come to a closure with us clinching the gold medal. We are officially IHG Badminton Champion for 2011/12!

We have been clouded with injuries and the odds seemed to be against us many times, nevertheless we pushed through each encounter and last night, we stood on the courts rejoicing (though we didn't cry!). We cheered, we rejoiced as a team, as a hall because the glorious title of Champion was restored to our hall!

I do hope the team has benefited much this season of walking together on this journey. Indeed I can only give thanks to God being so kind to the team and as one of my team mates prayed, let Your will be done if we were to win, or not. God, may You be glorified in all I do, regardless of the outcome.

I do.

2012-01-31T01:13:00.000+08:00

This past weekend was hectic yet fulfilling.

Witness 2 of my close church buddies coming together engaged. Nothing comes close to that joy!

The experience did stir in my heart...How would mine turn out? Who will it be?

I wonder...

Thanks Zac for the shot

Lovely?

Never to forget

Keep out

This way please

Down the path

Ready to go

Done!

1 Cor 13

Ethel and Esther

Thank You Lord

Tears of joy and surprise flowed freely

He appears

He speaks

He proposes

She agrees

They unite

In His Love

Their parents

His family

Her family

Her family and relatives

Their friends

WRPFers...the CREW

Her first time being serenaded to

Smiles

Appreciating the effort

It was just an open space

The co-planner/designer

The organiser

Her parents

Drowning in love

Lorraine has higher expectations from now on

Capture the moment

The graphic designer

The trusty friend

The videographer

The vocalist

Music Team

Specially for you two

The vocalist

Churchies

The cupcakes

Done!

All smiles!

Sweet Ending

Kidding yeah!

Congrats my friend! I'm happy for you =)

Enter the Dragon

2012-01-24T22:58:00.000+08:00

Been an eventful CNY so far for 2012...
A weekend half spent in school because of a softball match...
A sermon that touched on the blessedness of God...
A 2-day CNY that saw little action on visitation and more on NUAI-ing around this year...

Thank God as always, that His providence is abundant (apart from the Angpow collections)...
I was reminded about family-ness this year...

How important it is to gather back during this festive season, not because it is a routine or a ritual but simply because of the family bond and closeness...
How sad it would be if this 'tradition' were to fade away...

Least I know in Heaven, this will never fade away...Family-ness in Christ; in Him.

Food =D

Cheeeese

Steamboat or Grillmoat?

Sin-ful-ness!

Gather together again

"I'm watching you"

The 3rd one left out

Niece and cousin...NAISE

My very first...

2012-01-19T02:42:00.000+08:00

And this is my very first attempt at Time Lapse photography!

Joke of the day: I happily brought along my GUITAR stand when I was suppose to bring my tripod! =S
Argh! Nevertheless, enjoy my little piece of work!

Managed to stitch 85 shots into an 8s video =)

More to come!

Framed...

2012-01-13T09:05:00.001+08:00

Always been wanting to embark on this project but never had the time (and discipline) to do so!

Am gonna try to super-impose 200 photos of the sun-rise in NTU and make it into a video =S
Not sure how that is going to turn out...tomorrow...
I will do it tomorrow!

Loving those who love you is like a child eating a chocolate cake. Wait and see when the child reaches his greens.

Click to Win

2012-01-10T23:01:00.001+08:00

Following up on one of my post on Facebook, I had this idea while showering earlier!

Hahaha...so anyway since you (the reader) are reading this now, you are entitiled to receiving an AWESOME gift from me this Christmas 2012 if you leave a tag on my board! LOL

The whole idea for this is to actually monitor the traffic flow to my site since I have no idea WHO actually comes along.

Certain rules for entitlement:
1. I know you personally.
2. 1 pressie/pax regardless of number of tag.
3. Possesses an ACTIVE blogsite and recently posted on it (after 01 Jan 2012).
4. Leave a link for me to check on point 3!
5. Entries made after 1 Dec 2012 will be deemed void!

So fun! I shall see how well (or bad) this will go!

Sing out to God

2012-01-10T22:11:00.000+08:00

Sing Hallelujah.

Preach the Word? I think it'll be better to live out the Word comparatively.
Am glad to have spent today going around. Blessed to be a blessing.

Sunday was awesome. Thank God for the awesome encounter and the many take-aways and humbling me. It's all about You.

Jesus at the center of it all

2012-01-08T07:17:00.001+08:00

Pastor Yoy had a stopover yesterday. Definitely anointed voice and man of God.

1 take away from Him: In all things, let Jesus be the center.

Amen.

Resolutions

2012-01-03T08:38:00.001+08:00

And as I embark onto 2012, it hit me that I had not reflected and thought of a verse for 2012.

I have had this practice ever since I accepted Christ back in 2005 when UFS would put a lot of emphasis on stopping and listening, asking God what's next.

As I thought about the verse, I believe God reminded me about loving Him above all.
He put the verse Matthew 22:37 in my mind as I looked for the text.
Looking back, my verse for 2011 was just so fitting as it has been with other years!
My verse in 2011 was 1 John 4:7

Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God; and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God.

And back in 2011, I just found myself growing so much closer to some of the people around me especially my friends in church. I have also experienced what it means to love one another when my cell put money together on my birthday to support my mission trip to country M. God is just amazing!

And so I believe in 2012, God will teach me something related to Matthew 22:37 and to bring my faith to a whole new level. I shall not anticipate a good or bad experience but if God can use either experiences to His glory, then I guess it would be always a positive one!

Something interesting though is the strong sensing of love and life partner in me. Maybe 2012 is the year! =)

O Lord my God, reveal Your will to me.

Oh Happy Day

2012-01-02T10:21:00.001+08:00

Welcoming the New Year has always been a quiet affair for me, well mostly.
But this year, things got a little different.

Snucked away in a house somewhere in Singapore, a group of close friends gathered together to receive 2012. Singing along to songs that never made it to outros, having heart to heart conversations just about anything in life.

This may seem a little waste of time to some, but to me it would be a waste if this time was never spent.
How the friendships were forged and made stronger; how one gets to hear the experiences of another and even realizing how much in common we all have.

A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another, even as I have loved you, that you also love one another.

Keppel Bay

The Logos Hope

Marina Bay Sands

Marina Bay

Focus Focus!

MV Logos Hope

Will I go?

The Dudes

The Dudettes

Bon Voyage!

And off she goes

2011-12-30T00:43:00.001+08:00

Today marks the last day for Logos Hope berthing in Singapore.
Though she isn't exactly leaving yet but moving to Keppel Bay, still she will always be on my heart.

She may not be the ship I was onboard in 2006 but the stark similarities with the Doulos just brings back memories.

Memories of the many nationalities onboard; memories of the friendships forged and many more...

Still I can only pray that if it is God's Will, then I will be back for a 2 year stinct.
Then again, I don't want to go onboard with a wrong attitude and mindset so I'm watching what God is saying.

Till then, these are some of the people I'm gonna miss!

Desiree! Had to leave her quickly else she'll weep in the bookstore!

Yoshi! See you in 2013!

Marcel the Handsome German!

Steven the friendly guy who is so tall!!!

Francois! If only time would slow down!

Madeleine!

Barnard the Bossman of Tours!

Captain Ahoy!

2011-12-28T23:16:00.000+08:00

Today is the second last day the Logos Hope will be in Singapore.

Kind of sad yet excited to know that if God willing, He will make a way to put me on the ship for 2years. God willing that is.

Anyway, it has been a great experience and exposure, getting to know heaps of new friends and going around the ship explaining little details to curious tourists.

Tonight was a little special. Got to spend a bit of time with a Singaporean ex-captain with OM.
His involvement with OM and giving His time to God is just admirable.
So I figured I must take a photo with him! =)

And you're leaving on a jet plane

2011-12-27T02:43:00.002+08:00

I had barely known the Lugao family for 2 weeks and tonight, they are enroute back home to Brazil.
Here lies one of the saddest part of the ship ministry is that everyone comes and goes pretty much all the time.

This family has been a exemplary model to many around them and I thank God for allowing our paths to cross. Though we may not have known each other well, still I thank God for knowing this family and pray that God will bless and use this family greatly for His glory.

Silent Night. Literally.

2011-12-26T07:21:00.000+08:00

Having spent Christmas 2011 in Silence seemed pretty sad (for me). While most close ones I know spend their nights either together as a family or with friends, I spent mine working on a video needed for coming Sat and heading to bed.

If you don't already know, I spent most of my festive seasons in my whole life (not) celebrating them. I don't know the exact reason but it always sticks in my memory because I always hear people around me of how they are going to spend their time going to some gathering or flying off on holidays.

It's never a wasted process if something is taken away from it. And for me, I would never want to see my kids spend their festive seasons and holidays by themselves. It is not just the need to celebrate or host lavish gatherings, but simply the reminder that there is still a family that exists and it is real.

Here's how I spent my Christmas weekend:

Something cooking up this 31 Dec 2011 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oOSuTZN6fXs&feature=youtu.be

5 Loaves and 2 Fish

2011-12-15T08:16:00.001+08:00

Serving God's purpose is probably one of the best ways to see Him provide.

A submissive heart.
A simple offering.
A supernatural experience.

It is more often mind-blowing to experience first-hand of what God does.
And He's not doing for you or me. He does it for His glory.

As the clock counts down to Christmas, the entire team is working to keep up with pace.

Rehearsals after rehearsals; Gigantic props and stuff to be made; issues to be ironed out.
Yet in the midst of all these, we see God's Hand both in individually and corporately.

This Christmas feels really different and definitely a faith-raising one given the boldness for a 300+ congregation to target a 1100+ seating service.

Then again, the ship that never leaves the port will never discover new shores right?

Lord God Almighty, we look to You.
Not Your hands or Your provisions, but to You.
To hear You; To follow after You; To glorify You.

How Much More

2011-11-29T00:44:00.001+08:00

Hearing Sunday's message on God's Goodness and His provision, I really didn't see this one coming! =S

I had been hyped up for this coming week's mission trip to Myanmar and halfway through, I hit a roadblock. The amount I expected to raise for the trip was only suffice for the air tickets. I had to raise another sum of it for the lodging and food. Usually for my trips I would take it for granted and ask from my parents.

Well this time round, I wanted to go in faith, by faith. I want to go knowing God is the One providing for me. And He did. The way God worked in the situation, really threw me off and sweeping me off my feet! I cannot imagine in my little brain how God could have turned this around just like that but HE DID.

Just weeks ago, I couldn't come up with enough to pay up for the trip and I had to ask Pastor for deferment. I don't know how and I don't know when but I will do all I can to raise the outstanding amount for the trip. And I thank God for Pastor's understanding to let me pay back later.

Now after tonight, I stand to testify God's provision when we ask of Him. How God always provided for His people especially those who give everything for Him, I may never understand fully but now I have tasted and seen of His Goodness.

I will go forth and be the blessing I was blessed to be. With every cent and bit of the love you all have given, I will put them to use for His glory. And the kids of Myanmar will receive the Good News, knowing that I made it there because of you love and generosity in Him who is able to so much more, exceedingly and abundantly.

On a personal note: My heart is filled with gratitude and warmth of all of your love and giving. Each one of your name written down on the card. Many things tend to be forgotten but I will never forget this. And I pray that as you have given, that you receive much in return and be blessed as you grow more and more in Jesus. Love you all!

This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers and sisters. ~ 1 John 3:16

Cake baked with love =)

Hand Burger

The wonderful people

Zac - Always ready

Reminder that my friends are very sweet!

I get it I get it..any takers?

The prop makers

The cake bakers

Eventually I did enjoy the night! ~ Sam and Pavit

Smile always! ~ Zac

Always joyful ~ Jean

I'm 24, not 16 ~ Rachel

Good times ~ Zeph

Keep Growing tall in Him ~ Brian

My awesome sister for life and forever ~ Ethel

Loving siblings ~ Amanda and Ryan

Never fails to make me laugh each and every time ~ James

Stay 'hot' for Jesus! ~ Eudora

You are always a dear friend to all especially me ~ Sarah

Sure glad to know you so much more since 2005 ~ Donnie

The card of love

My version of the "card of life" with the names written on it

All your love, now I hold onto in memory for life

The stand ~ Made with great love and effort

Thought this is quite apt for a sweet friendship

Thank you for the magical night

My symbol of offering to Him for all these blessings in my life

The night to come before I turn 24

2011-11-27T21:51:00.001+08:00

And I look back today, giving thanks to God for the little surprises and reminders that He loves me!

Jean Lim

Zeph

Elaine

Temporal vs. Eternal

2011-11-24T14:39:00.001+08:00

Bugatti Veyron - Estimated Price $2.6million

Considering that this is probably the most expensive car in the world till date, it is the best comparison I can find =)

Chariot of God - Priceless

But nothing beats this!

From the beginning of creation

2011-11-24T11:34:00.001+08:00

22 "The LORD possessed me at the beginning of His way,
Before His works of old.

23 "From everlasting I was established,
From the beginning, from the earliest times of the earth.

24 "When there were no depths I was brought forth,
When there were no springs abounding with water.

25 "Before the mountains were settled,
Before the hills I was brought forth;

26 While He had not yet made the earth and the fields,
Nor the first dust of the world.

27 "When He established the heavens, I was there,
When He inscribed a circle on the face of the deep,

28 When He made firm the skies above,
When the springs of the deep became fixed,

29 When He set for the sea its boundary
So that the water would not transgress His command,
When He marked out the foundations of the earth;

Proverbs 8

Blog reading...one in a while

2011-11-23T09:40:00.001+08:00

Happened to revisit one of my friend's blog whom I have not seen or talked to for years now since Poly days. Xuan Yang, since I first knew him in poly, is one densely-packed brain of knowledge and intelligence walking on the face of this earth.

Since I'm blogging about him, let me try to recall some of the highlights about him during our 3 years in polytechnic.

1. A walk to remember

And no I'm not referring to the chick-flick starring Mandy Moore! Astrology has always been one of XY's favorite topic and how I know this?

Well if you had no interest in Astro, would you rise from your comfortable bed in the wee hours of the morning to catch a passing star? Or calculate when the next Astro activity is going to take place? Or follow the live updates and telecasts from NASA (No this isn't an acronym from American Pie!)...NASA - National Aeronautics and Space Administration that is.

2. The Big Bang Theory

I still vividly recall the painstakingly long train rides we took together on the North-East Line (NEL) on the MRT system. The hour-long trips to and fro would usually end up in us doing VERY different things on the train. It has always been a rare occasion that the 4 of us including Christopher and Shao Jie takes the train together but somehow when we do, most of the time you'll probably notice a dude doing his reading on the train while 3 other bozos doze off as quickly as the train pulls out of the boarded station.

And catch this! XY isn't just reading the daily comics or revising his lecture notes! For once out of the countless times we took the train together, I noticed he was actually reading Nuclear Physics! Well it may seem trivial to some (or many) but during our poly days, the last thing on most of our minds was to actually read something beyond our studies. Guessed it must really be his interest!

3. Spaced Out

No I am not meaning to say that XY will daydream from time to time, but the fact that he has a dream (not sure if it still is) to work in NASA (refer to point 1). He actually has a plan rolled out back in our poly days on his route of advancement (ROA) and was dead set on entering NASA. Now that he left for Aussie for his degree along with Christopher and a few other of our course mates, I'm not exactly sure where his location is right now. But I'm pretty sure he's still on planet earth (the last I spied his FB!)

Now sharing about a unique friend, it's time to share about his unique sites. I have put down the links to one his blogs on his daily entries (some call it a diary) and from there you may find really interesting links!

http://www.ultimate-infusion.blogspot.com/

Our Polytechnic graduation photo (L to R) - Me, Christopher, Mr Roger Chua, XY, Shao Jie

I actually do miss this bunch of friends (you will when the few of you do almost everything together in school!). Other than Shao Jie who I see in uni, Chris. is back and running a cafe in SG while like I said, XY is unknown at the moment. Not sure about Mr Chua but I have a good feeling that he's probably still lecturing in SP.

Ending off here on a lighter note, one of my teasers towards XY back in our poly days:

Internal Joke =)

GNK Trekking 2011

2011-11-14T01:27:00.001+08:00


Early Saturday Morning

Alternative to walking on water

Nice and breezy

Left or right?

Would never discovered this view in SG if not for the event

Awe-Wait for it......Some

Yeap, Zeph totally got disgusted =D

B & W

Crossing Over

The narrow road

Pretty flowers

The time I got bored...a little

Empty

Photo...in a photo

Where's my date?

Row row row your boat

Thought this looked really nice

Gathering point

Breathless...cause the view was just breath-taking

Just say YES

2011-10-31T09:01:00.004+08:00

And just hours ago, one of my closest and best pal(s) got together to take a step forward in their relationship.

Despite the fact that much hours and effort have been put in by close friends and loved ones, the long awaited for moment did finally came.

Now a YES has been given, things have moved up to a whole new level.

Enjoy =)

Digging the Ditches

2011-10-27T08:12:00.000+08:00

Today attended the Global Leadership Summit 2011 at Riverlife Church. Though I got up late and 'missed the boat' , thank God I made it on time for the conference.

The GLS is an annual leadership conference usually lasting 2 days, this GLS happens to be my first time in attendance. For more info, you may visit http://www.glssingapore.org/

I honestly did not attend GLS with any expectations to begin with. All I could do was utter a sincere prayer before making my way down, telling God that since I'm already going for the conference, He might as well make use of it to speak to me. Well and He sure did, not just to me but I believe the rest of us who attended.

There were various sessions, interwoven with recesses and meal times. The timely breaks were just long enough for fellowships between the many groups attending the conference. As true blue WRPF people, we sure did make full use of the breaks through our 15 minutes of quick (and I really mean quick) sharing of the first half of the day's sessions. We barely had 30 seconds (There was a countdown timer projected on the main screen!) and we managed to wrap up and close in prayer just 3 seconds before the worship leaders came on stage.

One session after another, the speakers (through broadcasting of the video recordings) never failed to inspire (me) in faith-building and trusting God for greater things. The first 4 sessions today seemed almost like a walk up a flight of stairs, each session building up on the previous one. I thought today in particular I was intrigued by the 4th speaker in session 3, Patrick Lencioni. Visit his profile at http://www.tablegroup.com/pat/

I thought this was it. The most engaging speaker for Day 1 of GLS. But no, I was wrong. When session 4 came on after tea-break, I was glued to the video on Steven Furtick. This was a 31 year old (yes 31!) pastor who hails from America and having grown a church from 4 members to the 8000+ congegation it is in Elevation Church (click to visit them).

Pastor Steven is not to be viewed as some "young punk" who happened to hear God speak and followed whatever God said. Hear it for yourself, his life and journey with the Lord and how the church he started grew (exploded may be a better description here). This dude is now my fav! And I thought Ethel was just going ga-ga over him before he spoke, but I was wrong!!! And now I can't wait to hear him speak at Hillsong Conference 2012! Sydney here I come!

So I share stop sharing about GLS here but just like to post 3 photos that describes what I think YAY! Ministry is going through:

Then after GLS, I went to a wake with several church members. This wake was in memorial of a lady, at a young age of 25, not much older than myself.The father, Mr James Chan commonly known as National Director of YWAM greeted us and thanked us for coming jsust after we paid our respects.

I did not personally know the family, even Mr. Chan. But one thing for sure, I wanted to make this trip because Joanne's life story inspired me in a way when she was alive. I could identify with her since we were quite close of age though I have never met her in my life. Reading all the prayer updates of Joanne's condition going up and down over the past days have caught my attention and thinking to consider my own life.

And I owe it to Joanne that I concluded that I shall not live my whole life pursuing personal desires of earthly things but to cherish the things of eternal value such as souls and salvation. It also got me realizing that if I want something (major in life), prayerfully do it and stop hesitating because life (and time) isn't going to wait around!

And summing up today, is really a bombardment of emotions (quote Aunt Agnes). And I thank God for giving me this experience. Because in any and every circumstance, give thanks to God knowing that He allows all things to happen for good. Greater good.

YAY! Leaders

More YAY! Leaders

And more YAY! Leaders

Still some more YAY! Leaders

"I want to hear from you now"

With every ship, comes the captain (and his wife)

GLS 2011

Are you ready to step up?

Crossroads

2011-10-23T20:59:00.003+08:00

How I feel after 48 hours of this weekend.

God has placed 2 unique and independent events in my life.

Is this His sign?

Alpha the Awesome Cell

2011-10-10T21:52:00.001+08:00

God, these are Your people. Each and everyone of them, belongs to You.

Alpha Cell (23 members at Sarah's 23rd birthday!)

Alpha Cell Leaders - Marcus Ethel Sarah Elaine

Alpha Army Dudes

Alpha Poly People

I was wrong

2011-10-10T00:07:00.001+08:00

If you had followed my previous post, God really proved me wrong, in a good way.

Sat's turnout was way better than I expected, and really heartwarming.
Often I wonder who still reads my writings (except those who tag), oh well here goes:

1. Shawn Ng - It is great to see you after such a long time and glad to hear that you're into your final phase of poly life. Hope you encounter God wherever you are and regardless of which service you go to, that you seek God with all your heart!

2. Peng Chen - Now that you're in BMT. Wait, I didn't even know you enlisted!!! Anyway it was nice seeing you at the party too and knowing that NS ain't exactly a fun thing, do keep in touch more often? So we can keep praying for you too!

3. Joseph Chang - Thank God for always keep you safe thus far especially with all that airborne jumps! You are a a blessing to those around you in case you don't already know! Just learn to discover how you can greater glorify Him as you tune in to God!

4. Dione - Always giggling and chirpy! You're like the bubbliest girl in cell! Really hope to see you in cell more often! And yes, you can always learn canto other than from TV shows!!

5. Timothy Andrew - Know that NS has probably been occupying a lot of your time but it has been wonderful hanging out with you over the party and Sunday afternoon! REAL STEEL huh! haha...You have great gifts of God in you and God can still use you though you don't have a desire for full time! God loves you all the same brother!

6. Marshall - You've been coming to cell more often and yes, it heartens the leaders to see you around! Remember God's opinion of you is the most important! Jia you for your school work and believe God is more than able to help you!

7. Pavit - Thanks for coming even though you only had like 3-4 hours of bookout time! It's really encouraging to see you journey in your faith and Pavit, I pray you'll rise up to the occasion in faith and watch what amazing things God can do in your life!

For the longest time ever, there were close to 20 people in the Alpha Cell photo! To me, that was an encouragement from God. But I pray we'll not just meet up because it's a special event like someone's birthday but we desire to fellowship because we can then sharpen one another in Christ!

Lord, help our cell. Only you can work things out. Amen.

Ways and Means

2011-10-07T12:36:00.001+08:00

Yes God, it can get really tiring and demoralizing.

I always wondered in awe how you went through all that for those who don't even care.

I don't think I have that kind of capacity, I just don't think so =(

I can only pray you'll intervene.

Rest & Reflect

2011-10-01T20:32:00.001+08:00

Today marks the 3rd YAY retreat that we have had so far.

All of us agree that having come so far, the R&R has seem to become a part of our schedule that without it would just seem so weird!
Nevertheless, it was a short and good session today.

Meeting up somewhere in Commonwealth for private dining, the place was surprisingly good and served great food alongside the generosity of the owner. Gerald was also a strong believer and I believe today, both parties benefited mutually.

We came together basically to slow down from our daily routines and also to regroup and reflect on the past 3 months of God's faithfulness.

And yes indeed, it was a great time and to know that the few of are all in this together! =)

Lord of My Life

2011-09-09T02:48:00.000+08:00

Continuing from yesterday's entry, it saddens my heart lately to come to know of younger ones proudly declaring to one another the deeds through the week.

Regrettably, they are neither testimonies nor thanksgivings of what God is doing but rather how enjoyable the places they've been to or the activities they have accomplished through the days.

So what's the big deal about it? I will try my best to pen my thoughts here,
bearing in mind of the context that we have given our lives to Christ.

Influence to those around us. Here's the thing that is probably a stumbling block to many churches/fellowships today especially those that deals with youth. Is drinking or going to clubs wrong/sinful?

This argument in itself can actually be non-exhaustive and should be seen from a different perspective.

Nevertheless, I shall not go into the argument but my stand (currently) is no to drinking/clubbing.
I'm not advocating that I'm a clean nice guy and not been to a club or drank but the matter of fact is that when one (I) comes to realization that God created Man in His image can easily be said that our bodies are created for reasons far more than drinking and abusing. The other way I see it, is Christ Himself the Son of God dying for our sins when He came down to earth. My physical body is far too precious to be abused with alcohol with the price that Christ has paid.

Having said this, I'm not in a position of judging but rather, my prayers goes out to those of us who disagrees.

Think about this:
We all have choices in life.
Every morning of our lives, we can choose to go back to sleep or wake up when we open our eyes!
Every meal we partake, we can choose to first give thanks for the food or simply consume it happily.
Every time we come home, we can choose to sit by the TV all night long or do something else?
Every day we can choose to be entangled by the world's busyness or choose to come to God in rest.

The real test in a Christian's faith is not exactly the one that takes place when Christ returns!
I choose to believe that the test is every moment in our lives if we choose to please God or to please ourselves.

Seriously in any decisions or choices to make, we either please God or ourselves. Think about it!

I pray the day will come, least in my church fellowship, that we are like iron sharpening iron and mutually encouraging one another to press on in our faith rather than be in Church but in the WORLD.

Then again, how am I living my own life?

The Calling

2011-09-08T14:43:00.003+08:00

Since my last entry, much has been happening in my life though it ain't an excuse not to be blogging (or spending time with God!)

Anyway one of the biggest highlights of my life is this:

Charles weds Winnie

YAY!

Awesome table of people! (some missing)

Hansum Charles and Pwetti Winnie

U Abe Sim and my plan to tease the couple during the table phototaking!

*Credits to Aunt Tiffany Tan for some of the photos here.

One of the God moment for me during the wedding was probably hearing Charles declaring to Winnie in front of everyone at dinner: Let’s think about our calling together.

And that, happened to be on my mind as I prepared myself to help out during the day ceremony. Would my wedding be one that is dedicated to Jesus, with many as witnesses. I was envisioning my wedding to be something along the lines with a dedication to Jesus and yes Charles, you did it!

YOU ARE FINALLY GETTING MARRIED WITH WINNIE! =D

It was a very heartwarming occasion and perhaps for very fact that it is a joy to witness a brother/sister in Christ getting married, I always make it a point NEVER to miss a wedding! And no, it is not about the food!

Then again, where would I be 5 years down the road? Would a grand wedding really be so important?

Yet the million (billion?) dollar question: Who will be the other person standing next to me on the very day?

*Watching and praying*

Change is Coming

2011-09-01T01:20:00.000+08:00

Somehow tonight has opened my eyes.

It was definitely a regret not to be around last week.
But still, thank God i managed to come by tonight.

Power of God is still evident today and the God in the Bible is the same God we worship.
He is always around and He never slumbers.

and tonight I have seen enough with my own eyes.
God is amazing.

Directions directions...I need a new direction

2011-08-24T00:24:00.000+08:00

Everyone around been's telling me differently.

Some would agree with one another while others gave a different opinion.

I know either way, God is able to work things out to His glory.
If there's the case, I shouldn't need to worry =)

Get to know just a little bit more

2011-08-23T01:24:00.001+08:00

If you're married or in a relationship, how well do you think you know your partner on a scale of 1-10?

In the same way, how well do we think we know God?

But I rejoice and take comfort in the knowledge that God knows me inside outside.

Race To The Dawn 2011

2011-08-06T22:31:00.000+08:00

It was tiring.
It was crazy.
It was yet a time where God's people can see His providence and sow the seeds of His Kingdom.

This year was definitely another scale of RTTD and sure, the committee has really really given
much of themselves to this event.

But I really pray and hope that we don't forget the reason why we do this and that.
Surely God You are able to use anything to glorify You, and I pray that RTTD will be one of it.

Having heard certain stuff just throws me off once again.
Once in a while, my ears would pick up news and rantings about things in church.
By once again, I'm reminded that God has only 1 church in His eyes in this world.
The Church of our Lord Jesus Christ

God didn't define His church by the songs they sing or whether they spoke tongues or not.
Sure, some people will come along and try to reason (with me) the definition of the Church.
But come on, you and me ain't God. So let's not try to play God's role here.

Ultimately what I'm driving at, is the very fact that God has made it clear.
Love God and love men.
I believe any Christian would be set apart from the people around them by this commandment.
Not in that it is a commandment, but the most beautiful thing that can happen.

Yes, I pray Lord that You open my eyes continually to see Your Will, to know Your Will.
There is nothing greater than to be in love with You Lord.
Father, I thank You that it ain't about me or my merits.
It's all about You God, all about You.

Seemingly Impossible

2011-08-04T23:01:00.001+08:00

The more I hear and the more I know,
the more it just seems so impossible.
Even though it may not be workable,
I know I can trust that God is able.

I will hold on and I will press on,
I pray that I will keep praying and seeking.
I hear many different opinions and counsels,
but all of them just seem to be so carnal and humanly right.

God, I want Your way, not Man's.

A blameless Life?

2011-07-28T01:27:00.000+08:00

"Only conduct yourselves in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ, so that whether I come and see you or remain absent, I will hear of you that you are standing firm in one spirit, with one ^[v]mind striving together for the faith of the gospel..."

Phil. 1:27 NASB.

One of the verse that was shared tonight by UFS. A grim yet timely reminder to live a lifestyle worthy and pleasing to God. This of course isn't going back to living under the law and trying to satisfy it, but rather to live a life knowing Christ and the grace freely given by Himself so that we may pursue a life in obedience and holiness.

Paul was imprisoned when he wrote this letter. For? For the sake of the gospel of Christ that he stood for, he chose to honor God. He chose only because he believed in the gospel. He believed because he heard.

To know -> to believe -> to love -> to obey

And this I pray, that your love may abound still more and more in real knowledge and all discernment, so that you may approve the things that are excellent, in order to be sincere and blameless until the day of Christ; having been filled with the fruit of righteousness which comes through Jesus Christ, to the glory and praise of God.

Phil. 1:9-11 NASB

Here Paul's encouragement to the Philippi Church was to remain sincere and blameless and seek God to be filled with the fruit of righteousness. And to be sincere and blameless required the Philippians to be able to approve the things that pleases God. And that was achieved through growing in real knowledge and having the wisdom of discernment.

And tonight's sharing on waiting with anticipation was just apt. It definitely was speaking to me, and I will hold onto the Lord as I wait upon Him. Against everything the world claims, I will hold onto Him and seek His Will for me. Because in all and for all things, it is to the glory of God. =)

A Godly Woman

2011-07-25T22:51:00.001+08:00

¹⁰ An excellent wife, who can find?
For her worth is far above jewels.
¹¹ The heart of her husband trusts in her,
And he will have no lack of gain.
¹² She does him good and not evil
All the days of her life.
¹³ She looks for wool and flax
And works with her ^[h]hands ^[i]in delight.
¹⁴ She is like merchant ships;
She brings her food from afar.
¹⁵ She rises also while it is still night
And gives food to her household
And ^[j]portions to her maidens.
¹⁶ She considers a field and buys it;
From ^[k]her earnings she plants a vineyard.
¹⁷ She girds ^[l]herself with strength
And makes her arms strong.
¹⁸ She senses that her gain is good;
Her lamp does not go out at night.
¹⁹ She stretches out her hands to the distaff,
And her ^[m]hands grasp the spindle.
²⁰ She ^[n]extends her hand to the poor,
And she stretches out her hands to the needy.
²¹ She is not afraid of the snow for her household,
For all her household are clothed with scarlet.
²² She makes coverings for herself;
Her clothing is fine linen and purple.
²³ Her husband is known in the gates,
When he sits among the elders of the land.
²⁴ She makes linen garments and sells them,
And ^[o]supplies belts to the ^[p]tradesmen.
²⁵ Strength and dignity are her clothing,
And she smiles at the ^[q]future.
²⁶ She opens her mouth in wisdom,
And the ^[r]teaching of kindness is on her tongue.
²⁷ She looks well to the ways of her household,
And does not eat the bread of idleness.
²⁸ Her children rise up and bless her;
Her husband also, and he praises her, saying:
²⁹ “Many daughters have done nobly,
But you excel them all.”
³⁰ Charm is deceitful and beauty is vain,
But a woman who ^[s]fears the LORD, she shall be praised.
³¹ Give her the ^[t]product of her hands,
And let her works praise her in the gates.

All the attributes to look for in a life partner =)

Love is in the air

2011-07-25T01:57:00.000+08:00

This season of months has been weddings after weddings.
Truly they are the closest example we can get of God's love.

And that lovey-dovey feeling that comes with it, I know one thing for sure it ain't gonna last.
My point here? Love isn't just a feeling but a decision.

Here's a sharing I like to post here and hope it will bless you:

10 Keys to Relationship by Pastor Benny Ho.
The general passage was taken from Gen. 24:10-67 in the story of Isaac and Rebekah.

1. Wisdom in seeking counsel
2. Equally Yoked
3. Beauty of purity
4. Principle of shared inheritance
5. Presence of willingness
6. Key of Prayer
7. Virtue of kindness
8. Need for family blessing
9. Principle of timing
10. Hang around the 'well'

I pray that I will not look for the perfect partner, but strive to be the one.
The one who will please God.

Decisions and decisions

2011-07-20T13:01:00.001+08:00

Of late I've been increasingly challenged to make decisions.
Yet most of the times, I chose to defer the decision probably out of fear.

Then again, it can get really confusing for me!
Godly counsel will tell me to put my faith in God, hear from Him and act upon it.

Well I would think that there is an aspect of fear to that.
Somehow faith and fear are inseparable.
Questions like "What if I heard God wrongly?" or "What if that wasn't God speaking?"

Maybe it is just the inside of me longing to rant but I guess there's what a blog is for right?
Beats screaming into the ears of someone innocent, I think I rather pen them down.

I guess the more important the decision is, the more fear it is associated with.
I mean if the ice cream store isn't open when you get there, it doesn't disappoint you as much since 7-11s are like everywhere.
But some decisions are just not the same.
They have consequences. They have impacts.

I can only pray that I muster enough faith to believe.
God You make the impossible, possible.

God is Love

2011-07-17T21:28:00.000+08:00

As we begin to see God working in our midst, the Devil is secretly scheming his plans. And he is trying all ways and means to bring trouble.

And I acknowledge to You God, that all these is not about in the flesh but in the spiritual.
That there is a spiritual warfare going on and confusion is rampant.
Even among Christians, strife and dissensions have begun to rise up, causing many others to stumble.

1 thing I've learnt to anchor myself on is to point myself back to God.
That whenever I feel that I have to choose a side or worry that I will offend anyone,
I will choose to please God and honour Him.

This way, not only will I be able to find myself firmly rooted in my stand and faith, I am able to see things through the eyes of God. Many times I find that troubles and dissensions come about because we refuse to surrender our rights. We choose to play God. We think we are right, or least others are wrong.

Lord, may I always choose to please You and see things through Your eyes. As the song goes, Open the eyes of my heart Lord. Father, lead me and guide me. I praise You and thank You, for the love so deep You have given. Let what You have dictated, no Man shall change. You are God alone.

Matters of the Heart

2011-07-14T23:51:00.000+08:00

And I'm not referring to matters that are bugging me but my physical heart.
The one that goes beep-bob without resting for a single beat.
The one that reminds me of God's faithfulness even when we are in our sleep.
The one that keeps the rest of me functioning even when I'm unaware.

And tonight my heart is acting up for an unusually long time.
Was playing badminton earlier when the tight sensation just overwhelmed me =(
And now it still lingers =S

Hit me really hard, to give thanks with every single breath I take.
Because I never know, when my next breath will be my last.
Jesus, I surrender to You my life.
I shall not fear nor worry, because my life is in Your hands. Amen.

Dr. Matsutani

2011-07-13T02:43:00.000+08:00

Larry Crowne was surprisingly good. First impression was that this is going to be another B grade!
But who knows as the story unfolded, it turned out to be one written really well with twists incorporated.
The funniest part was having George Takei cast as Dr M... Hilarious!

A man who was on the verge of losing all that he had, took a nose dive and came out stronger, better.
I particularly admired his courage to head back to the bank and sell away his house, with the fact that he was retrenched and divorced. He chose the hard way out, because it knew it would do him good in the long run. He had a SUV which he sold and got himself a scooter.

When the testing time comes, will I be able to lay down my pride and my everything before Jesus?

Is that Your voice I'm hearing?

2011-07-10T21:54:00.000+08:00

Today's sermon was on Missing Piece.and Dr Huan preached on 3 points:
1. Personal response towards God's purpose by acknowledging Him when He speaks.
To surrender oneself to Him wholly and to undergo spiritual training.
2. Choose to work towards God's plans. In response, making a renewed choice.
To turn back and to reform from my wicked ways.
3. Fitted for God's plans and in response, give 100% devotion to God in Faith.

As we went through worship today, I prayed for God to convict me.
To convict me of the things I ain't letting go in my life.
To convict me to see what God is doing in our midst now.
The downpour(of the Holy Spirit) is coming!

And as I processed the sermon, I'm really amazed that the things I pondered during Worship,
God spoke of them through Dr Huan during the sermon!

Greater things are yet to come, Lord Jesus I'm believing You for it! Amen!

Durian Delight

2011-07-10T00:55:00.000+08:00

A great day and a great trip!

Awesome food, fellowship and fun!

It definitely was a good buy of Scrabble Dash!
Had so much fun playing with Rachel and Sarah all the way from Jusco till on the PIE back to church.
And durians were just oooohhhhhhhh...counted more than 30 that I ate!
Dinner was not too bad, the fellowship just made up for the quality of the food!

And there was little or no jam, something really to thank God for.
Plus it threatened to rain when we reached the plantation, but eventually the sky cleared!

For those who missed the trip, I can only say please come for the next trip!!!
Especially with all the YAY! people on a bus!!! It's just so much more fun!!!

On a side note, developments have taken a strange turn and I'm watching what God is doing.
I would use to pray for a relationship with a particular person.
Now I find myself praying that God brings a partner whom He wants me to serve alongside with,
to give our lives together to His glory.
And God, I pray that I do just that. Amen.

Looking back

2011-07-07T23:15:00.000+08:00

Was just reminded today about one of my long forgotten blog post.

I guess it must be really long ago cause I can't seem to find it now =(

Anyway reading a few of my old posts at random,I began to appreciate the journey I've had for the past few years as a child of God. I even laughed occasionally at some of the entries I've actually blogged about.

Nevertheless, it is by His Grace that seen me through all these years.
Been a long day and very tired now. So here are a few interesting links of my old posts:
- http://bestillandknowthatheisgod.blogspot.com/2007/09/god.html
- http://bestillandknowthatheisgod.blogspot.com/2007/07/rsaf-pilot-interview.html
- http://bestillandknowthatheisgod.blogspot.com/2007/07/everyday-its-you-i-live-for.html

Face(less)book

2011-07-02T10:16:00.000+08:00

As I begin my 40-day fast journey with the many other like-minded Christians in Singapore, this year is especially a meaningful one for me personally as I fast and pray for the YAY (Young Adults and Youth) Ministry and myself.

Several key emphasis would be:
- My career/calling in life since I'm a step away from graduation
- My relationship life since I've been *abstaining* from it as I really want to enter into one that God calls me
- My devotion to Jesus since all along I think I'm still not 100% surrendered
- The YAY Ministry to see the "DOWNPOUR" that God has hinted to us

Fasting from:
-Facebook for the next 40days hence I probably will expect a lot of blasting from people as to why I'm not responding
- 7am-7pm food fast at least once a week

I must be wary that fasting isn't about me trying to keep to it because I have to but that I fast because I want to devote myself to praying and interceding and be sensitive to God's voice. Someone wise told me that I'm very poor in relationship handling and a long time ago, another told me that I should learn to be more diplomatic in handling people.

I thank God for people willing to point out my hindsights to me (they are called blindspots for a reason). At the same time, I attribute my present self as a result of growing up in a home that showed no expressions of love but only anger and dissatisfaction. I can only pray that I will not carry this into my own future family and be mindful of the mistakes that I've gone through previously. I know only God can give me the grace to see me through.

This year is interestingly a time for me to grow in specific areas of my life and I'm praying/watching for it. Lord, please don't pass me by. I want to grow in You and love You more. Help me.

By wisdom a house is built...

2011-06-25T00:38:00.001+08:00

During my last exams season, a sister(in Christ) had a verse for me.

The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still. Exodus 14:14.

And yes, now I stand to testify that He really delivered me.
I know it's not a big change but surely, I see God's hand in this.

And after tonight, I definitely have much to re-evaluate and not just evaluate.

I know I have my weaknesses and flaws.
I am only but a sinner, saved through grace by faith in Jesus Christ.
That's who I really am, a child of God.

The rest of it all? Doesn't really matter.

Know who you are

2011-06-08T00:20:00.001+08:00

It was only 24 hours and much time was spent on the road travelling. But I'm glad that even the time spent together on the roads were enjoyable moments and I definitely miss the times now that I'm back home. It was a time of sharing and also, being reminded of who we are as children of the Lord God most high.

Not being able to hear any updates from the rest is just frustrating! =( How I hope someone would just update about the ongoings in church camp! Just something like maybe even the quality of breakfast!!! =S

Well I'm gonna post a thousand words with a photo =) haha get it?

As Promised

2011-05-24T02:46:00.003+08:00

Well now that the most stressful season is over, I shall continue on my previous post.

Anyway having posted 300 blog posts seemed to remind me that I have come a long way in blogging. Still remember the first time I actually blogged was in Poly Year 1 and it's been almost 7 years now!

I was actually contemplating to blog about 300 people in my life and dedicate a minimum of 300 words to each of them. But writing 90000 words is seriously NO JOKE! So yes, I'll try to write for as many of you as I can =)
Think I'll work backwards, writing to the people I've been working with most recently and see how far I can go!

1. Sarah

This is one person I know you can always rely on. Since the time I first got to work with you, your unwavering faith and confidence in Christ is always inspiring and I am definitely very blessed to have you as a co-leader and a friend despite having to juggle so many ministry commitments and your work and being the oldest sibling. Though we probably only got to know each other better in the last few years, but we sure have had many opportunities to work together.

It still seemed like yesterday when we worked together on the “Game of Life”. It was one of the very first times that amazed me at how efficient you can be and it was definitely a great time since having to partner you in many different ways.

The one thing that always awes me is how much respect you get especially from the younger ones who look up to you, in particular those who are being mentored by you. Your undivided love for them is evident from the common acknowledgement that Sarah is a “big sister” who goes out all the way to look after those under her care.

Your talent in worship is also one to thank God for, especially in blessing the communities around you. Your voice must undoubtedly be a God-given talent so please, do keep singing for God! And not to forget your many other talents such as drama productions, song writing etc. I believe many will agree with me that your chairing of ‘Captivated By Love’ would not have been a great success without the contribution from Grace and yourself!

Recalling the first time I heard the song CBL, I just knew that WRPF is so blessed to have you. And I pray that you’ll keep rolling out those songs as God leads you. Now that you’re in the working phase of your life, I really pray and hope that you’ll labor on with the favor and blessing of God especially in your work life. Thank God for you and I really appreciate you being a part of my life! God bless =)

2. Ethel

You are probably one of the first few people I actually knew when I first came to Serangoon Cell and WRPF. I can still recall so clearly the first time the door opened at your place and I was greeted with great enthusiasm and joy. The overwhelming welcome is always one of the simple reminders for me of the importance to equally love the members and guests around me.

Looking back at our friendship, it has been like 6 years and counting! And what more that you are the first few people I’ve known since I came to WRPF! I am always encouraged by your love for Jesus and your sensitivity towards God, especially when you are leading worships. It is always great to be able to hear the Lord speak and move in the Spirit.

Well I’m definitely glad that I have most, if not all, of our memories a pleasant one than not! And thank you really, THANK YOU for lending a listening ear and just being here to share my heart-felt burdens. I would have never thought it possible that I could share my thoughts with you, but I am definitely glad that I can and I have. You have had been a pillar of support to me especially a few years back coping with my issues.

It has been a journey seeing you move from season to season. From the period you were in Whitley to TP to now you working with kids, it’s nice to know that you are always hearing from God and moving in His plans.

And I pray and hope that in the days ahead, we’ll continue to enjoy this wonderful friendship we share. And there is just so much more lined up ahead for all of us, I’m sure God has it all planned out already! You have been a great friend and I pray that we’ll find opportunities to serve and enjoy God more and more in time to come! You are deeply appreciated =)

3. Elaine

I’ve only gotten to know you better a few years back when we were still in youth ministry’s Knights for Christ. It was always an encouragement to have you along with the rest stepping up to serve God as leaders, especially in leading the youth. I still remember the many of us I see in church when I first came, many whom were really quiet and keeping a low profile. And as I reflect on the individual journeys of faith, I am amazed at how God works and raises up a people for Himself.

And as for you, I continually thank God for you and being placed in the lives of many to be a blessing especially to me. I think it has been like 5 years since we first started working together in the Youth and one thing I’ve learnt from you is always to trust God and sometimes, doing nothing is the best solution to allowing God to do something.

Your ability to balance the different priorities in life has been inspiring and I always thought if I could spend a day sneak-peeking into your daily routine, I’m sure I’ll gain much in learning how to give my time to the different priorities. I thank God and also thank you for your willingness to be a mentor and a sister to so many of the younger ones in church and it is evident in your relationships with them!

Well you have been more than just a co-leader to me and being a friend to me, I can only say that I’m very blessed! Thank you for always encouraging me and giving your advices, it serves as a reminder for me that probably no other would give =)

I would think there’s so much more I can thank you of. Maybe words aren’t the best avenue for me to express my gratitude but trust me that I will always have this gratefulness in me, you have made a difference in my life.

4. Matthew

Hey matt, thank you for being a brother to me all these years! Your constant presence and support is very much appreciated and I will always miss and look forward to our guys’ nights out and stay overs! Who says only the girls can have fun having stay overs!

Interesting fact, do you recall how we got to know each other? Haha… If my memory has not failed me, I believe it was either being in the same worship team or when we started going lan lol… But anyway I’m glad our friendship has grown stronger than ever and I can safely say that you are probably one of my closest guy friends around and with you, I find support and comfort in sharing my heart’s concerns.

But thank you for being there to listen to me especially a few years back. Just to have you coming to meet me at Starbucks when you are in camp is just heartwarming and it just shows how great friend you are. It was definitely one of the most depressing seasons for me but I thank God that He sent you to be there for me. I never understood nor treasured people around me but having known you just changed everything!

Now that you are in Thailand and probably going to be in Sisterhood of Mary, I pray that you will find God in that very place and continue to be a blessing to those around you! And I have been reading the book you gave me and thanks for the thought. I really look forward to you returning and resuming our weekly prayer meetings.

And talking about that, thank you for expressing interest in coming for prayer meetings when you are back! I am praying and hoping for the greater works of God in our midst, especially in the young people! Can’t wait for you to get back! See you soon!

300th Blog Post

2011-05-01T00:51:00.004+08:00

To commemorate my 300th blog post, I shall attempt to write a minimum of 300word thanksgiving for the close ones in my life. But this will only take place after 16th May and may occur over a period of time and even a few posts as I'm unsure if Blogger would have a word limit for a post!

Nevertheless, I really want to take the time after exams to reflect on the relations in my life and thank God for everyone if possible.

Disclaimer: If I do not mention your name but you are a follower of my blog, I ask for your forgiveness beforehand and you may wish to drop me a note so I can add you in =S

Thank you for being a loyal reader here and see you soon! Till then, it's mug mug mug!

Oh, Happy blessed birthday to Samantha Sin, Justin Lim, Ben Yuen and Uncle Swee Ewe!

AGM

2011-04-17T21:38:00.001+08:00

AGM commonly known as Annual General Meeting is a time whereby an organisation gets together each year to review its progress and make decisions that require the body.

To me, Church AGM is more of Accepting God's Mandate.

Why do I say so?

Well the bible tells us in Hebrews 13:17,
Obey your leaders and submit to them, for they keep watch over your souls as those who will give an account. Let them do this with joy and not with grief, for this would be unprofitable for you.

This serves as a reminder for me to submit to the Church leadership where God has called me to, and to honour the decisions that the leadership makes. To give my support to the leadership and also to be praying for them, seeking God's agenda in the process.

This also reminds me to press on in my role as a cell leader. Not indulging in the title of a cell leader, but to be accountable always and mindful that I am answerable to God for the people under my care. That I have the responsibility to give an account of them.

Under references to leadership of a church:
1 Tim 5 - Eldership
Titus 1 - Eldership Qualitification

Thank You God for bringing through today's meeting. Thank You for revealing Yourself and Your Presence.

On a side note ~ Interestingly not many people of my age seem to be concerned with the happenings of the church at corporate and leadership level =(

Jesus Accepted You; Now You Accept Others

2011-04-17T04:52:00.002+08:00

So reach out and welcome one another to God's glory. Jesus did it; now you do it! Romans 15:7 (MSG)

God wants you to accept others in the same way that Jesus accepted you.

In faith, we accepted God’s acceptance of us – through Christ – when we were unacceptable, and so we love God by freely offering the same gift – His acceptance – to others.

To love God and to be to others what He is to us …

We must be willing to be for others -- God’s life is a life for others. He always is and does what is best for others. He has a non-selective love for all others. To love God is to have -- in faith -- a non-selective readiness to be for others … all others … any specific other God sends your way.

We must see others as God sees them -- True love, God’s love, is not blind. It sees what those living for themselves do not see. We set aside our judgments in order to “see what eyes have not seen and ears cannot hear” (I Cor. 2:9) so we can help those in need.

Filled with Thanksgiving

2011-04-16T21:19:00.001+08:00

Lord I thank You for today, and witnessing how faithful You are.
I thank You for showing Yourself so real, least to me.
Thank you for the assurance and peace even in the face of negative news,
cause I know I worship a God who provides for those who does His will.

Lord I find it really hard to love like You love, especially unconditionally.
Forgive me for all that thoughts I've had and the conclusions I jumped to.
May I learnt to view things through Your eyes,
and maybe just one day, I'll be able to have a breakthrough in my life.

Things were out of control today, things went against the plans that was made.
But one thing for sure, I know God is/was in control.
I surrendered to Him to make things work, if not so be it.
And Lord, I'm still amazed at how You put things together this day.

People may not be as supportive as I thought so.
It hurt me a lot to see how things turned out.
It really made me consider if this is Your will for me.
If it is, then I pray that You cause my burden to be light.

Father, may I learn to be humble and accepting.
May I learn to come to You first in all things.
I live in an imperfect world, but I know I am not restrained by the principles of this world.

I love You Lord, and thank You Lord.
You have been faithful and always will be.
Cause us to turn to You always and never seek to turn away from You.

Let's see how you're going to spam me now

2011-04-15T02:24:00.001+08:00

Made my first official ban tonight.

Apparently this joker all the way from Kentucky, USA has been tagging my wall with his/her advertising link and seriously odd comments.

Disregarding my warnings, well I had to put a ban on his/her IP address.
Let's see how long this will last before I impose a lock down on visitors to my blog =S

Heh, this is SO COOL!
And KFC happens to be my favourite fastfood! haha...random!

P.S. I Love You

2011-04-14T01:20:00.001+08:00

By this all men will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another.

~ John 13:35

L4D

2011-04-13T20:02:00.000+08:00

As of tonight, I am thoroughly done with the way things are being handled.
A personal experience is probably all I need.

The least I expected was a lending of helping hand, not hypocrisy.
My heart goes out to those who are being played out. Least God is for you.

I've always been wondering.
And now it got me to wonder even more.
Surely, it has just made me a more "wonderful" person.

To sum up what I feel it's happening right now:

Reflection

2011-04-13T01:27:00.002+08:00

One thing I need to learn ~ reflect

Instead of looking out of the window, to learn to see my own reflection in the glass.

Bugged

2011-04-13T00:08:00.001+08:00

It always puzzles me why my blog always attracts weird taggers and comments...

Nevertheless, to all you weird people out there:

~You are not dealing with someone who is a computer-idiot.
For a start: To whoever you are who tagged my board tonight, do not think you can hide.
I know your physical location so please leave my blog alone.

A New Found Love

2011-04-12T00:21:00.000+08:00

I was lost, but now am found.
Grace was given, as I looked toward Heaven.
Lord Jesus Christ, God's Greatest Sacrifice.
As I looked to the Cross, tears fill my eyes.

The Lord challenged me as I prayed on Sunday:
God gave His One and only Son for us,
why is it that we give our love to the world instead?

Therefore I, the prisoner of the Lord, implore you to walk in a manner worthy of the calling with which you have been called,
with all humility and gentleness, with patience, showing tolerance for one another in love,
being diligent to preserve the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace.
There is one body and one Spirit, just as also you were called in one hope of your calling;
one Lord, one faith, one baptism,
one God and Father of all who is over all and through all and in all.
But to each one of us grace was given according to the measure of Christ's gift.

Eph. 4:1-7

Next Level

2011-04-10T00:56:00.000+08:00

This has been on my mind for quite some time already, but I guess it'll still be quite a while before I get my answer.

I feel like I'm reaching the next level.
Quite like choosing which potential school to enrol in.
Like having to choose the next phone to use.
Like having to decide if bread/kopi or Big Breakfast.

Nevertheless, I'm trusting God and I know whatever choices I make,
that the Lord has prepared it before I knew.
Whatever it is, I pray that it'll be glorifying to You Lord.
Here is my willing heart, I give it all to You.

=)

Day 5 of Power Encounter

2011-04-09T01:40:00.000+08:00

This was a really strange encounter. One that was seriously unexpected.

A Chinese student who happens to be my hall neighbour came knocking on my door.
My room mate wasn't around so I got to chat with him. Apparently he's looking for a potential room mate for the coming new semester. I was initially uninterested because I thought my current room mate was going to apply with me.

Who knows God's timing can never be more perfect...

The next day I realized that my room mate applied to stay alone!

That meant that I would be staying with someone unknown!

Well to sum it up, I believe it wasn't a coincidence that the Chinese dude came by to ask for a room mate and the next day, me finding out that I'm going to be alone!

God, what are you saying?

Day 4 of Power Encounter

2011-04-08T02:36:00.000+08:00

Wednesday.

The 3rd most looked-forward-to day of the week this season! Why?

Just ask any YAY! Ministry leader!

Arrived early at HV to catch Rachel Chan studying at Starbucks! Then we adjourned over for dinner and fellowship. Dinner was just WOOOOO, or maybe because I was starving! But thanks anyway to Aunt Agnes and her able assistants/kids!

Helped David with worship later in the night. I am delighted to always be reminded of how in the body of Christ, our strengths and weaknesses always complement each other to give God the Glory He deserves. And I thank God for gift to minister in the area of worship, and I pray for more to come, as well as the grace to work on the aspects that I'm weak in such as leading a study on the Word =S

It was surely an anointed time as we fellow shipped and processed Sunday's sermon. Thanks to Donnie who led us all in a new and refreshing way of applying the Publishing-Processing-Generalizing-Applying method! For those who have no clue what this is, you'll be surprised at just how fun this new method is!

Then we had a little bit of planning and updating about the cells and ministry. Very important take away for the night was to be mindful of the members' spiritual walk!

And overall, I would say it was a wonderful time of fellowship with God and God's people. Oh, how apt to say that 1 day in the House of God is better than a 1000 days in the world!

Day 3 of Power Encounter

2011-04-07T01:12:00.000+08:00

The past 2 days have been an awesome time of encounters that God has brought into my life. And Tuesday wasn't quite as expected.

I was supposed to meet Alvin and Xue Xin for worship practice due for Justin/Jasmine's wedding. I went to meet Xue Xin first and I actually went with a mindset of no expectancy of any encounters, but I suppose God's timing is always mysterious.

Though it was a long journey all the way from NTU, we managed to meet up and had fellowship over dinner. It was a lot of Engineering talk over the table but definitely a good time of fellowship, especially not seeing Alvin for quite some time already.

Then we adjourned for worship practice and as we started practising after a word of prayer, the entire practice wasn't exactly a practice. Alvin and Xue Xin were worshipping the Lord and the songs were soon not the focus.

The presence of God came and lingered. We played and sang but it didn't really matter if a note was out or the sequence was not in order. We just flowed with the leading of the Spirit. Before we knew it, time caught up with us and it was past ten already.

We managed to cover the songs required and as we left church, we all agreed we should continue the fellowship over supper! Hence coupled with some POWER Nasi Lemak, we headed over to Boon Lay Place Market and decided to not let the long queue dissuade us from some real good food!

Over food, we had a good time of catching up again and I must say, worshipping on Tuesday night was really liberating! And a verse this week reminded me:

Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty.
~ 2 Cor 3:17

And I was reminded of John 4:24 ~ God is spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth.

All in all, worshipping God musically is worshipping Him in Spirit and in Truth.
Without both of these, I am only offering a Lip Service unto God.

And I pray that whenever I worship Him, it will be in Spirit and in Truth!

Day 2 of Power Encounter

2011-04-06T02:36:00.001+08:00

As I reflected upon Sunday's encounter, I prayed that I would continue to be sensitive to the Lord and that the busyness in my daily life will not distract me.

On Monday, I took up Our Daily Bread and the devotion was on loving others. The passage for the day was from 1 John 4 and the passage was on verse 7 - Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God; and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God.

This verse has all along been on my heart but it never really stood out to me and nothing was special about it until the evening. When I was reading another devotion from Word for Today. The devotion also spoke on 1 John 4:7 although the devotion differed slightly.

I know in me that God is saying something to me since what are the odds that 2 devotions pointed out the same verse. Am still seeking Him about this though.

1 very interesting point on this verse repeated to me! This is the exact verse of the Year for me! That's why! God is reminding me again...

Certain issues in the cell was brought to my attention and it breaks my heart. I'm sure it breaks God's heart too. Why can't Man put aside our own agenda for God's agenda? If we can't, then why claim to be followers of Christ?

Stark reminder for myself: To never be a hypocrite and to live out my faith. If I say I love God but have not loved, then I have not loved God at all. May I ever be the fool for God, especially in the most trying times of my life. Lord may I never choose the easy way out and dishonour You. Help me to live that life of obedience and faith despite the temptations all around me. Only in Jesus' Name I have this assurance.

Power Encounters

2011-04-05T00:15:00.000+08:00

Funny how it all seems to be orchestrated perfectly.

Just last Saturday we were doing application for the sermon preached last week and the accountability was to pray and watch for power encounters with God through this week.

Honestly I wasn't expecting to be facing any power encounters. But it really amazes me how God works in mysterious ways.

On Sunday after service and having celebrated Grace's surprise birthday, I noticed Grace's friend, Joshua sitting all by himself at the front of the worship hall. I smiled at him and he smiled back. Unexpectedly, my body went into an auto mode and I found myself sitting beside him. In my mind, I was just about to walk away, busy distributing cakes for Grace.

The next thing I knew, Joshua was sharing with me all about him and it definitely was quite a lot on his heart. Deep inside me, I was praying and asking God to help me to be sensitive and hear Joshua's sharing.

Half an hour on and Grace was telling Joshua that she's leaving for lunch. I thought Grace was going to wait for him but when Joshua and I prepared to leave, Grace had already left. I found Joshua all by himself outside the church carpark, alone, and seemingly lost.

Here's the 2nd encounter and I knew God wanted me to do something. I had intended to go lunch with Donnie/Jean/Jude after bumping into them outside church. But God had a different agenda for me. Donnie had to meet up with Jude nearby church and after I got through to Grace over the phone, I knew God wanted me to accompany Joshua to City Hall.

On our way to City Hall from walking to church to taking the MRT to walking to M.O.F. , Joshua was doing the talking and sharing like 99% of the time? I was praying inside me for the Lord to use me; to hear Joshua and his struggles.

We met Grace and the rest at MOF and after about an hour, the rest had to leave for various reasons. I volunteered to stay behind as Joshua had not finished his drink (he was sharing with Grace the whole time what he was trying to share with me). I had a quiz the next day, but I trust God to use me to be there for Joshua.

And so we stayed on for about another hour at MOF and me hearing more of Joshua. Toward the end, he was very curious and inquisitive about YAY! Ministry, that gave me a chance to share more about our ministry to him but I felt I could have done better. Before we left the cafe, I took the leap of faith to share with him what God is putting in my heart to minister to him. He was thankful and remarked that he really desire to come back to God's love.

All in all, it was a great time being just a listening ear to a brother I barely knew that day. And I truly believe that was what Jesus would have done too. To be lovingly there for a brother when I could have chosen to walk away many times.

I thank God for this opportunity and I pray that Joshua will begin to encounter God as well in his walk with Jesus. I am sure God is doing greater things in our midst in the days to come. Let us press on and persevere no matter what comes our way, for our victory is in Christ alone!

Thank God It's Friday

2011-03-28T00:40:00.003+08:00

A production ~ Who Killed J? is a semi-mime put together by the talents of World Revival Prayer Fellowship.

This play is intended to bring across the message/idea of Good Friday and why we have a declared public holiday on this particular Friday.

Happening on 22 Apr 2011 @ Geylang Lorong 27A. Interested now? You know how to contact me =)

What are words

2011-03-25T00:29:00.001+08:00

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone ~Chris Medina: What Are Words

Another secular song.
One human to another.
A promise to be there.
Penned down in a song just for the beloved one.

Just reminds me of how much more God loves you and I.
At the same time, I'm reminded of loving others around me as He loves me.
Though I may be far, I still care.
Though I don't say, I still care.

So as long as I live, I live in the faith; in the Spirit.
Lord, humble me and teach me to love as You love.
Friend or Foe, help me and give me the grace to say "Jesus loves you"
For I die to myself once again, that I may live in You.
You and You alone.

Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. ~ 1 John 4:7

DJ Got Us Falling in Love Again

2011-03-21T02:07:00.000+08:00

The song DJ got us falling in love again is actually a secular song.
Well I suppose in my case, it's Jesus got me falling in love again

Just as the past weeks I was praying and hoping for a turning point in my spiritual walk, this weekend's experience was definitely a God-given solution!

Though I wasn't exactly walking through the valley of the shadow of Death, I knew within me that I was drifting away from the Lord. My heart was not as sensitive; the Spirit within me had a deep longing and hunger.

This weekend was a series of activities back to back, and I meant it!
Friday night - YAY! leaders retreat
Friday night to Sat morning - Night Cycling Rally
Sat morning to evening - YAY! leaders retreat

This 36 hour marathon took a toll on me..
After dinner, I knocked out on my bed but thank God, I managed to wake up early for service today.

At the retreat was a wonderful time of fellowship, with Him and others.
It also put a smile in my heart on other matters but shall not be shared here! =P

A movie and reviewing it was never so much fun and experience before!
Under the wonderful guidance of Pastor Simon and Rinda, we touched base on Mark 10 - The Rich Young Ruler. It was a refreshing time and I must say, I am definitely marinated now!

Went to church early today to join in the pre-service prayer at DFF. Was a good time though was just me with Aunt Beng Choo and Aunt Jenny. And I experienced His presence during worship led by Joshua during service. If you are reading this, join me! Go for a prayer meeting pre-service! It helps to get us in tune with the Lord and to worship Him in Spirit and in Truth!

I was praying hard for God to bring forth His power today! Though there wasn't an altar call, I know He's doing something deep down in the hearts of many.

A sidenote to give thanks would be the Yay! ministry Facebook page! As we see many more prayer requests coming in and younger ones beginning to open up in their sharing, this surely must be the Lord's doing!

This weekend ended with lots of food, spiritually and physically! The Lord impressed upon my heart as I was snacking on my chocs earlier...Having exercised my mouth so much, don't forget to exercise the other parts of my body as well.

It was a revelation that as I soak in His love and inputs, I ought to be exercising my faith and be a blessing as well. Lord, I pray that You'll open the doors for me to be a blessing.

Weekend has been an awesome one! And I look ahead to the coming week with all confidence in my Lord Jesus Christ! =)

In His Hands

2011-03-11T17:10:00.000+08:00

Went for attachment job interview just now.

I began to panic as I made my way to Techpoint.

Should I bring this? Should I mention that?

Fear set in despite my many prayers said along the way.

But eventually, interview went well least in my opinion.
Kept my cool and had a good chat with the interviewer.
Though it is an MNC, I'm glad that the sup. is local and approachable.

Not quite what I was expecting for uni attachment, but I'm sure God has His plans.
There is a reason and though I may not know why, I know You planned it all already =)
Lord I thank You whether I get the job or not, but I live with the faith and confidence that You have the BEST for me.

I'll hold on, I'll wait and rejoice because there are more than this to thank You for =)

Wedding of the Year

2011-03-06T23:56:00.001+08:00

It seemed like yesterday when I attended Sharon/Jody's wedding.

It was my first time attending a friend's wedding, someone I knew personally!

And just hours ago, I attended the Wedding of the Year for 2011 =)
Well there are a few more weddings coming up for 2011, but I believe every couple's wedding is unique and special!

So meantime, I shall blog about KY/JY's wedding because simply:
1. God-glorifying - Despite the glams and splendour of the ceremony and wedding and distinguished guests, Kon Yew and Jing Yi brought to mind who was really the Provider and Sovereign One. Despite the fact that many present are pre-believers, this lovely couple have set their decisions to honour Jesus in and throughout the wedding!

2. Was roped in months ago to help with the ceremony worship segment. Was really excited about it and glory to God for the smooth run. Though we were positioned behind the projection screen, it didn't matter to me. The fact that people couldn't really see us was even better because then, people would put their focus on the couple! Plus all the wonderful feedback and comments given only goes to show that the awesome people roped in are blessed with gifts and talents musically!

3. Good food and Grand setting. It was way beyond my expectations (for food!) and I never thought the wedding dinner would be held at S.R. It was definitely something to thank God for and yes! 1 last 6-star hotel to conquer!!! Capella!!! And the wonderful fellowship with Pastor Kenny and A Jenny, U mark/A Agnes, Joshua, Evelyn and Michelle just made the dinner memorable! Can't wait for the professional photos to be uploaded!

And not to forget, a good friend just shared me a beautiful song "What Are Words" by Chris Medina. The background of the song happens to be centred around a to-be-wed couple!

Hmmm...a really beautiful and wonderful weekend despite the fact that I woke up really late =S Bad bad habit!

My heart's desire

2011-02-14T13:56:00.000+08:00

Confided in another close friend today was a relief. Though this issue is very very important to me, I know it's not urgent. I choose to believe God has His best plans and the Lord knows it all.

I choose to devote my time and effort to serve and honour Him because at the end of it all, it is God's providence for me that matters.

Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. - Mat 6:33

I choose not to succumb to social pressures and reasonings, only You Lord I will follow =)

More than words

2011-02-09T03:16:00.001+08:00

More than words is all you have to do to make it real,

then you wouldn't have to say that you love me,

cause I'd already know.

Been an interesting day, particularly ending it with a short conversation with one of my mentoring leaders on the way back to school. It was really an unexpected opinion and I honestly don't wish to accept it (in a good way).

Nevertheless, Lord lead me in Your plans. The plans You have for me. I shall have no fears; no worries. No doubt it may seem like I'm putting all my hopes on it, I know I put my hope in You, that if it is Your very will You will see it through till the end.

It's not about me, it's all about You Jesus =)

Exalted

2011-01-31T00:08:00.000+08:00

Him and His Name alone be exalted.

For our God is Holy and Almighty.

He is enduring and forever faithful.

He is able and never slow to rescue.

The God we know, we put our trust in Him.

We want to see revival, we know its only possible by His power.

So come Lord, come and pour Your Spirit on us all.

The day He moved...

2011-01-02T20:52:00.000+08:00

I prayed...

I laid it down at the Cross...

The unfaithful me left it as it is, hoping for the best that God will work...

And unexpectedly, He amazed me once again.

You came and You loved. And you still love.

Thank You Lord for being faithful despite my faithlessness.

You are forever to be praised.

Amen.

I have sinned

2010-12-31T00:03:00.000+08:00

Dear God,

I know this is not about me and the power of transformation comes from You. Yet I cannot come to terms that I should stand by and do nothing.

If I am called to tend to Your sheep, should not I be accountable to You and provide Godly counsel? I believe I may not have employed the ideal method or used the most gentle words, but inside me, all I wanted to is for your children to be aware and mindful. Aware that You are omni-present and mindful that our lives are set to please You with obedience and the choices we make in our lives.

If I am called to tend to Your sheep, then I would count myself a disappointment to You. Lord, I am seriously evaluating my position and I pray that You would speak. I rebuke every self-condemnation and hypocrisy in Jesus' Name and I want to ask of You Lord to show up. Show Yourself so real to me; to Your children, Lord that life is far much more than what we think or see. Lord, to be able to discerning with Your wisdom.

Lord, I lay it all down at the Cross; at Your feet.
I have fallen short and I acknowledge my insufficiency.
Take over and use me I pray.
Here I am Lord.

Amen.

Hope

2010-12-12T11:53:00.000+08:00

I wait in hope for the Lord;
He is my help and my shield.
In Him my heart rejoice,
for I trust in His Holy Name.
May Your unfailing love be with me, Lord, even as I put my hope in You.

-Psalm 33:20-22

The battle that lasted 11 days

2010-12-11T10:40:00.000+08:00

And today marks the beginning of the battle.

11 days has never seemed so long and dreadful.

I see a variety of moods and events, from the solemn and serious ones mugging to the jovial and happy ones enjoying their holidays or even at the youth camp happening now.
Lord I will myself to thank You. To thank You even in this season and out of it.
To thank You that my confidence can be placed in You and despite the circumstance whenever I am in, I pray You'll help me to see things in Your point of view and help me not to be a hypocrite. To truly love You and follow after Your heart.

Whenever and wherever, be the Sovereign God who reigns in me. Amen.

Do not love the world

2010-11-03T14:16:00.000+08:00

Do not love the world nor the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him.

For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh and the lust of the eyes and the boastful pride of life, is not from the Father, but is from the world.

The world is passing away, and also its lusts, but the one who does the will of God lives forever.

Children, it is the last hour; and just as you heard that antichrist is coming, even now many antichrists have appeared; from this we know that it is the last hour.

They went out from us, but they were not really of us; for if they had been of us, they would have remained with us; but they went out, so that it would be shown that they all are not of us.

But you have an anointing from the Holy One, and you all know.

I have not written to you because you do not know the truth, but because you do know it, and because no lie is of the truth.

Who is the liar but the one who denies that Jesus is the Christ? This is the antichrist, the one who denies the Father and the Son.

Whoever denies the Son does not have the Father; the one who confesses the Son has the Father also.

As for you, let that abide in you which you heard from the beginning. If what you heard from the beginning abides in you, you also will abide in the Son and in the Father.

1 John 2:15-24 NASB

Elite for Jesus

2010-10-31T23:46:00.000+08:00

To live for Christ as though a special operative...to go against all that oppose His plans...

You probably ain't seeing things, the Mexican Special Ops carrying Barrett in parade!!!
Now since Joel thinks I'm a hamster on cocaine, this is the closest pic I can find to fit the bill!

Still don't get it

2010-10-22T01:20:00.000+08:00

I may never understand...

Unforgiveness of a person can supercede God's love...

=S

Please don't go

2010-10-21T01:32:00.000+08:00

And it's all happening for real.

What was hinted to us months back was thought of as a passing-remark.
It never occurred to any of us at any time that it was coming.
I knew I had to treasure the moments, the teachings and the experiences.
I just never expected the end to be so near.

Nevertheless, I will hold on.
I will stay strong.
Because of your legacy and your "fatherhood" to me,
I will live my life out in gratitude and appreciation.

I will give my life to a Purpose and a Calling.
Thanks from the bottom of my heart,
You have made a difference in my life.
God bless =)

Trust

2010-10-15T00:14:00.000+08:00

If there is one lesson I ought to learn, trust.

To put my trust in no Man but God alone.

Move away.

Those whom God hath joined together...

2010-10-11T01:09:00.003+08:00

O ETERNAL God, Creator and Preserver of all mankind, Giver of all spiritual grace, the Author of everlasting life; Send thy blessing upon these thy servants, this Man and this Woman, whom we bless in thy Name; that, as Isaac and Rebecca lived faithfully together, so these persons may surely perform and keep the vow and covenant betwixt them made, (whereof this Ring given and received is a token and pledge,) and may ever remain in perfect love and peace together, and live according to thy laws; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

Those whom God hath joined together let no man put asunder.

GOD the Father, God the Son, God the Holy Ghost, bless, preserve, and keep you; the Lord mercifully with his favour look upon you; and so fill you with all spiritual benediction and grace, that ye may so live together in this life, that in the world to come ye may have life everlasting. Amen.

Today was Sharon's big day, and many of us were there to witness this joyous occasion. Through the time of catching up with many old friends and seeing familiar faces, I began to run through in my mind how my wedding day would turn out to be...

Yet of cause, I am reminded again that in whatever I should do, it should be according to His Will. And I pray that in such "big" matters, that I wait upon the Lord and trust in His faithfulness and goodness. Whether in marriage or in singlehood, I can still be an instrument for God and honour Him.

But by the day, my heart grows fonder. I will trust in God.
In every consideration, I can hardly find another. Yet I will trust in God.
Seeking counsel and praying, I know it is a choice favoured by many. Still I will trust in God.

Lord teach me. Teach me to wait upon You.
To love You first. So that in turn, I may love my to-be-wife as You love me.
Amen.

No Turning Back

2010-09-28T01:08:00.002+08:00

The Cross before me, the World behind me
The Cross before me, the World behind me
The Cross before me, the World behind me
No turning back, no turning back

Faith

2010-09-26T00:41:00.000+08:00

"Live simply so that others may simply live"

As I listen to Pastor Chua's sermon, it just reminds me so much of the importance of leading a God-centered life.
Not only leading a God-centered life in living, even simply reading His word is to read His word with a God-centered mindset and revolving the focus on God.

The method of contrast in Psalm 1 is a timely reminder of abiding in Him; to look to Him rather than what He can give.
Many reminders are simple and straightforward, but they were mostly forgotten.

My prayer this coming week is to coming back to my first love, Jesus.
It is really difficult and tiring with so much on hand.
I don't foresee a smooth journey ahead, but I am assured of a destination.

I pray O God that You keep me in Your ways, that You will not turn Your face away from me.
Open my blinded eyes to see, open my deafened ears to hear.
Soften my heart to feel Your love, Your Great love.

Faith.
Faith in God has prevailed and will still prevail.
Teach me Lord, to continue to trust in You.
In Jesus' Name.
Amen.

Need You More and More

2010-09-11T20:57:00.002+08:00

Purpose Driven Life

2010-09-03T00:26:00.001+08:00

PDL. One of the best sold titles and popular among the churches for its very message.

What on earth am I here for?

It is exactly what has been bothering me for quite some time.

With different views of life and influences, it seems meaningless to live on.

It seems like lying down eternally is a better choice.

And it doesn't help being alone, physically especially.

Though I'm surrounded by many most of the time, it is just different.

And as the days go by, as beloved ones fade away one by one,

I find no one to turn to, feel so helpless and devastated at times recently.

I can't seem to get things done.

Properly.

Nothing seems to be that way.

I know I ought to turn back in His grace.

I know He is there awaiting with open arms.

I know He is ever faithful.

I know He loves.

But I guess I only know.

I may have not experienced it myself.

Lost.

UN - expected

2010-08-26T00:19:00.001+08:00

These few days been an emotional roller coaster and has got me thinking about my future.

Also, the challenge was brought up.

Do you want a good life?

So I thought to myself, what is my definition of a good life.

Well I'm still learning to take things positively and learn as much as I can out of every experience.
Because of Jerm. 29:11, I can rejoice and hope in the Lord.
Because of John 3:16, I am reassured in the Lord.

Simply because of who He is, I can rely on Him to lord over my life.

On a side note, I re-contacted a dear friend who went MIA for some time.
I'm glad we talked; I'm glad we'll get to meet up soon; I'm grateful for this opportunity.

Lord, use me. Amen.

Choices

2010-08-14T00:00:00.000+08:00

Seems like everyone around me chooses to do what they want.
Regardless whether it is aligned with the plans of God, or there's even a God,
people I know get to choose what they want.

So should I likewise?
It is such a struggle, especially with my current point in life.
A time when everyone around is saying no, perhaps I should too?
But yet, I know I won't say no because if I do, there won't be anyone left.

=( It's discouraging not because I have to "ta" but
what's our priorities? Do we choose the easy way out?

I feel like doing so already.

I choose not to sigh.
I choose to look to God.
Show me why, why I'm going through this season.

Fall into place

2010-08-12T01:54:00.002+08:00

If there's one thing I learnt definitely about God, it's that all things will fall into place in His timing to come.
He will see to it; He will bring it to pass.

As a friend says, perfect love casts out all fears.
And I say Amen to that!

=)

Will of God

2010-08-04T01:12:00.001+08:00

Pray Thy will be done.
What if God's will is not what I asked for?

How would you handle it?

Faith

2010-07-30T00:36:00.003+08:00

Thanks for being faithful despite my faithlessness.

Always been an encounter with you, never fails to surprise me.

Now I lay my hopes all behind me,

Because it seems that hope leads to disappointments.

Not that it is from Your word at all,

Just what I am feeling this season.

Stretch me, pull me, as far as You can,

I hope I'll never snap because you know my limits.

And I guess I'm coming to the end of the road,

Just shows how much I can do without You.

It's all wrong, I know.

I hope I'm wrong.

Yes.

Band of Brothers

2010-07-28T23:26:00.003+08:00

The gang of five started out one day,

Hey, let's form a band!

And then on, after the first and last band jam,

an accountability group was formed.

The group eventually had an addition,

all the way from the States.

The group of 6 met pretty occasionally,

Heartfelt sharing over pizza or prata was the norm.

As time went by,

people got busier and hence meetings was lesser.

Slowly but surely, the meetings became less frequent,

Yet thank God, sharing finally grew deeper.

Then one by one, people started fading away.

For the good or the bad,

I'll never know.

One thing I know, Satan has and always will be working very hard.

O Lord, now I'm close to losing my closest brothers-in-Christ.

Indeed Love is the greatest of all.

Lord, then where is the love You gave?

I beg You, to remind us of our undeserved Grace and Mercy.

Lord, put Your Hand in this O God.

I know You are able.

~Praying~

Nothing is for sure

2010-07-25T23:46:00.005+08:00

Being a Christian for 5 years now,

I must say it isn't as expected.

The qualities that God tells us and the ones that we exhibit,

no wonder we will never be perfect.

And the count is ongoing,

as days go by,

I count the number of friends and people I know,

Slowly but surely, they drift away.

I can't put into words my anguish,

my sorrow and pain.

As I think of them, each one of them.

How we laughed, how we debated.

How we shared our heartfelt thoughts.

If you have ever been a friend or known me,

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry I did not cherish the chance to know you better.

I'm sorry I did not take the opportunity to be a mentor in Christ to you.

I'm sorry I did not share your ups and downs when you needed someone.

I'm sorry I failed to see the importance of keeping in touch with you.

I'm sorry I failed to consider your feelings in my speech and actions.

I failed; again and again.

Can You, God do something?Will You?

I cry out to You because each one of them matters to You.

Because if they don't, then there's no point in me believing.

Show Yourself true Lord, I cry out to You.

Below is for you, every one of you who are my friend.

Though you may never read this.

Nic - You have been a tremendous role model to me since I got to know you better. The days of goofing around on our guits. The moments we shared our hearts out. The times we spent chilling out or playing pool. The super sinful suppers we used to have in the past. If I can just allow you to read my mind, to tell you how much you have benefited to my life and taught me much through your living. Wherever you may be heading in the near future, thanks Nic. And I hope our friendship can emerge from this season stronger than before, not broken nor strained by whatever has happened. May God work in you and through you always.

Alvin - Since the first time I knew you, I always held you in high regards. Initially cause of your wings and knowing that we share so much in common, except that you're a liverpool fan, I thank God for the friendship we have. Now having known you better, I learnt to appreciate your heart for God the Father and how you have been trusting Him, especially with the seasons you had to go through. No doubt you may be worshiping elsewhere, I pray that Jesus will remain in your life as you live each day victorious for Him. Thank you for the many advices, encouragements and times we spent together, especially the insane night outs hunting each other (in a virtual world).

John Ho - For your laughter that infects everyone in the same room as you. For your kindness in opening up your place for our gatherings. For your willingness to bless others with a lift home always unfailingly. For your heart of service to God when you were in WRPF. I thank you and thank God for you. I pray that wherever you are now, that you will keep walking strongly in Him and always ready and wanting to go and share His love with someone you meet. Thank you John.

Matthew Chee - Bro, it's amazing how we've grown closer just over mere few years. Through the times we spent together and the stayovers where we shared our laments. The times we just sat down and poured out our thoughts and issues to one another. The times we came together every Sat to pray for the church and others. The times we decide to go for supper or a movie or a gathering with the common few others. They're embedded in my mind and they will stay. For your coming into my life and sharing my burdens, especially when I really struggled, thanks.

As you come to make decisions in your life in time to come, I pray that your decisions will be nothing but pleasing to the Lord and God alone.

Justin Lim - I have kept your card and always. It was a big encouragement for me and it still is. I have placed it right in front of me on my desk, as a reminder of being a blessing as God blesses. I thank you also, and your family, for your willingness to open up your place for us to hang around. For the mouth-drooling dishes your family whips up for us every time we come over. For the times we stayed over and your family still warmly welcomed us. I pray that NS is just a phase for you to see what God is doing in your life and teaching you. I have not seen you around frequently and yes, it saddens me. I yearn to see you back again. Not just physically in church but back into the love of Jesus. The man who died for us. The God who loves you. Miss you around Justin, hope to see you real soon.

Sam Goh - I can still remember the night we had watch night at Pasir Ris before I left for Sri Lanka. The night I sat with Justin and you. The night that never left my memories. All your joy and laughter, your randomness of jokes and theories. I thank God for you, for you coming into my life. Though I have not got to see you around for quite some time, know that I still remember you. Not just a friend, but a brother in Christ. For whatever reasons, God still loves you the same. He loved and He loves you.

Cornelius - Warm and friendly guy. Outspoken. Fun. That's you. The night I popped by to wish you happy birthday with a cake and visiting you. I want you to know I did it because you matter to me. How much more you matter to Jesus who died for us. I pray for you brother, for you to fall in love with Jesus day after day. Nothing this world can offer will satisfy our hunger, only Jesus can. God bless brother.

Brian - Your quietness is ever the same. But I am confident that God can use you and empower you as you trust Him and give yourself to Him. Though we don't get to meet much, I want to apologize for not making an effort to know you better. My lack of concern for you. My failure to treasure you. But I know that is always reconciliation. I pray you'll remain in Him always.

Shawn Ng - I have known you for quite some time already. Watching you grow up from a scrawny boy to now a good looking handsome young man, I thank God for you. For the letter of commitment you wrote to me once. How much you yearn to see God pour forth Himself, His love over young people. As you take the stage, as you get involved in competitions and pageants, know that as long as you love Jesus, do anything. And I am always here to give you my support and I want to know you better. I wish I can mentor you more. May you come to Him in full surrender as He reveals to you, the plans He has for you. He loves you.

Lionel - You've been a great brother and fellow musician. Your gift in music and your passion for God as you have grown so much recently. Since your departure from WRPF, does not equate that you're forgotten. You've been an encouragement and still are. May God abide in you always as you live each day. Be the "Bullet for Jesus", remember? =)

Julian - Your wackiness is one of a kind. I have yet to meet someone as fun as you. As bold as you. For your courage and boldness, I believe God will use you mightily. We may not see each other often as before, we may not get to agree on certain points. But we in Christ, bear one another in love. Brother may you grow ever stronger in the Lord and rock on for Jesus.

Matthias - Your charisma is ever-overwhelming. You're always a people-person. Having worked with you in let God let go has been a memorable time. Though you're not here already, I really wish I could have got to know you better and be a better friend. Wherever you are now, that God is watching over you always.

Tim Chan - Thank you for the times of serving together. Your charm and your sporty-ness I'll always remember. Your ability to take a step back and analyze situations. The times we spent together on a Myanmar mission. I pray you're doing well in wherever you are.

Jabez - Your multiple talents has always been a blessing. May you grow faithfully in Christ wherever you may be. Your talents be a blessing to the family God puts you in.

Jason - For your curiosity and questions and queries. May you settle and fit in to whichever family of God that you find. I pray that you'll find and experience the revelation of His Love.

Peng Chen - Has been good knowing you and sharing with you issues. Hope you'll have a yearning to grow in love with Jesus and spur on others around. You're a wonderful friend to know and I'll always cherish that.

Serene - Best friend. Though you're no longer coming, know that your cheerfulness and smiles are not forgotten. You've been a bundle of joy and I pray that you keep walking in Him.

Pearlyn - Great to have you in my cell for the times you were here. Seen you grew over the years and I thank God you've made a decision to settle in a family of Christ. May you grow ever stronger in Christ who strengthens you day to day.

Leaving on a Jet Plane

2010-07-22T00:57:00.003+08:00

And tonight, I sent off one of my closest friend I made in NTU.

Fellow crusader. Sister in Christ.

This post shall be dedicated to you Sharon =)

Thanks for being an encouragement and the times of sharing.

For being so understanding and accommodating.

When I was joyous and when I was down,

you were there to share the times with me.

Now as you embark on this exciting semester of adventure,

know that you are in my prayers.

The Lord knows the plans He has for you,

plans to prosper you and not to harm you.

I look forward now to your return soon =)

And on the other hand, another two of my closer friends are returning next week.

Time sure zoomed pass, it's as though it all happened last week.

The moment of departure is still afresh in the back of my mind.

Now I'm anticipating the week ahead to come.

Nevertheless, I'm feeling the reality of a friend's departure,

as in a friend who is leaving for an extended period of time.

Now I know I'll have to learn to cope with more of such changes in my life to come,

but I just cannot help but wonder what it is like and if I am the one who is leaving.

Not that I would leave and never return.

But maybe will God call me into a foreign land to reap His Harvest?

Maybe with a given partner of His Will?

Maybe for the longest time ever, He will send me?

Lord I trust in Your character and Your goodness.

In that, You have the best for me despite the circumstances I am in.

To look to You in each and every moment of my life,

and go down on my knees in surrender to Your Will for me.

Jesus, take pleasure with my life, my offering, my everything.

Going and gone

2010-07-20T01:04:00.002+08:00

As days go by,

I'm saying more goodbyes.

It has been 5 years

I'm glad I'm still here

I miss the many faces I used to see

Perhaps it's just not meant to be

Turning Point

2010-07-09T22:28:00.005+08:00

How much do you cherish life? Your life?

Just had a busy week in church and school...

Today's suppose to end on a high note...

Just came on FB only to heard that a friend just lost her only remaining family member...

Just like that...

No signs...

Gone...

Lord teach me to appreciate life is fragile...

Life's not all about pursuing after meaningless goals...

Now that the friend is all alone...

I pray, Lord PLEASE reach out to her

Turning Point

2010-07-09T22:28:00.002+08:00

How much do you cherish life? Your life?

Just had a busy week in church and school...

Today's suppose to end on a high note...

Just came on FB only to heard that a friend just lost her only remaining family member...

Just like that...

No signs...

Gone...

Now that the friend is all alone...

I pray, Lord PLEASE reach out to her

The Greatest of them all...

2010-06-21T23:54:00.002+08:00

Love. Agape Love. God.

Sad to read what the world and fellow believers are viewing CHC.

More disappointing are the comments and remarks made by fellow believers.

Their words make me ponder if they truly know God's love.

Reminded me of the passage that Jesus asked the crowd, if any of you has no sin, then let him be the first to throw the stone...

The media had only reported that CHC is assisting CAD and whoever with investigations, which to me does not imply that Pastor Kong and CHC are guilty of anything. I'm unsure of the updates but I'm pretty sure God knows it all, and God will deal with Man as He deems.

Children of God - Before the verdict is officially made, let us remember what Christ has done for you and me. Lay hold of His heart, pray for Pastor Kong and CHC. Sadly if you can't even do that, then pray for God's intervention for the truth to come forth.

Imagine what the world is saying and absorbing when the body of Christ cannot even bear one another in love.

Speculators and those following this issue - Hold your piece and comments because you have no right to give your conclusions until the Governing authority gives its verdict. Don't tell me you have the right because you ain't the judge. If you disagree, does that mean you'll dare to make your own conclusions aloud in a court room? No, because the Law of Singapore will stand.

God, let Your light shine through all these darkness, especially in this generation.

God is Love.